Saturday, July 2, 2011

overwhelmed and scared

We just got back from my last trip to the orphanage (my mom and cousin came with me!).  I will probably do two posts (the second post is here) about the trip since there is a lot to write about.  I was going up there expecting to meet the three new babies, take their photos and love on them.  Instead of three new babies, there were six new babies!  Six newborns (five girls and one boy)!!  Kaziba is the only orphanage that takes newborn babies (only after their mothers have died).  And the word is getting out that Kaziba is a now safe place to send babies that would otherwise die.  They are all beautiful, but I have to be honest, I started panicking inside.  I (through Tumaini) have committed to bring all the formula these babies need every month.  That is a lot of expensive formula ($70/month per baby for formula).  Right now we are not at full sponsorship (thank you to those who have sponsored already!).  Thankfully, some lovely people have given general donations to Tumaini which have helped us meet out monthly needs until we are fully funded.    So, I want to ask for help from everyone that follows my blog.  Would you be willing to link to my blog or the Tumaini website about what we are doing at the orphanage?  Even if you don't feel like you can financially give right now, could you help spread the word?  I am completely comfortable with my blog being linked on facebook or another blog.   A good thing is that in the last two days we have two more children fully sponsored!

Here is one of the new babies.

This is Esperance, she is about six weeks old.  

That is the overwhelmed part of my email.  

Now for the really scared part.  Two of the six new babies are very fragile and I worry they may not live.  Little Zawadi is tiny tiny tiny.  But she is also sick.  Very sick.  The last time I held a baby that looked a lot like her, she died the next day.   When that sweet baby girl died last year I was left feeling devastated and I felt like I should have done more.  This time, I did do more.  I asked the director if I could speak with the director of the hospital immediately.  He called him and he came over soon after.  I told him my concerns and why I was worried.  I told him what I thought was wrong with her and asked him if he would consider treating her a different way (with a different medication).  He said he would consider it and he thought he had the medicine I was asking about.  It may be too late, but I feel like as much as can be done is being done now.  Please pray for little Zawadi.

Sweet Zawadi

The second baby I am concerned about is the little new baby boy named Benjamin.  His mother died giving birth to him and he had no formula or milk for a week after she died and then very little for the 3 weeks after that.  He is so very skinny.  I fed him a bottle which he promptly threw up everywhere.  I talked to the director and the mamas about him too.  About feeding him more often and smaller amounts.  But it all felt so overwhelming.  There were so many babies!  There are a total of 8 babies under 6 months old, and 12 babies 6 months to one year old!  And 15 bigger kids.  With five mamas.  That's one mama per 7 kids/babies!  How in the world do you care for two sick and weak newborns given those ratios?  Please pray for Benjamin.

Beautiful Benjamin

I keep praying that today I didn't hold two babies that are about to die.

1 comment:

Shauna said...

I am praying with you!