Here is one of the new babies.
This is Esperance, she is about six weeks old.
That is the overwhelmed part of my email.
Now for the really scared part. Two of the six new babies are very fragile and I worry they may not live. Little Zawadi is tiny tiny tiny. But she is also sick. Very sick. The last time I held a baby that looked a lot like her, she died the next day. When that sweet baby girl died last year I was left feeling devastated and I felt like I should have done more. This time, I did do more. I asked the director if I could speak with the director of the hospital immediately. He called him and he came over soon after. I told him my concerns and why I was worried. I told him what I thought was wrong with her and asked him if he would consider treating her a different way (with a different medication). He said he would consider it and he thought he had the medicine I was asking about. It may be too late, but I feel like as much as can be done is being done now. Please pray for little Zawadi.
The second baby I am concerned about is the little new baby boy named Benjamin. His mother died giving birth to him and he had no formula or milk for a week after she died and then very little for the 3 weeks after that. He is so very skinny. I fed him a bottle which he promptly threw up everywhere. I talked to the director and the mamas about him too. About feeding him more often and smaller amounts. But it all felt so overwhelming. There were so many babies! There are a total of 8 babies under 6 months old, and 12 babies 6 months to one year old! And 15 bigger kids. With five mamas. That's one mama per 7 kids/babies! How in the world do you care for two sick and weak newborns given those ratios? Please pray for Benjamin.
I keep praying that today I didn't hold two babies that are about to die.